The Hunter, The Prey.....

I am Sagittarius, the Archer. But can an obscure astrological reference REALLY affect my life so much? Am I type cast to do everything that corresponds to a figure I've never even seen? And if so, should I not just wander the globe, free to do whatever I choose whenever I choose, for that is the spirit of the Archer. I wonder these things as I go through my current trials and tribulations. All I know is that I know much, and understand little, and it perturbs me. I also know that due to recent insanity on my part, the best conversation I've had lately has been with myself, literally. The best part is that no one seems to notice, which is amazing to me. Thank god for friends I guess : /

Quintesentially Perfect

I have found that the best way for me to be the man I know and pray I can be is to love as the moon. She is patiently aloof, controlling the seas and the minds and hearts of men for eons. She gives light yet no warmth, asking for nothing because she truly gives very little. It is in this way that I feel I should love from now on. I will be a cold and distant light, never attaching myself to anything again. It os through numerous failed attachments that I've come to realize my life is infinitly better when I never commit to a single course of action. Though I yearn to settle down with a companion, rest my swords above the mantle such as it were, and raise a family, I feel it will never happen. The parts of me that strain and strive to put to use my love for children and another person do not take into account the realities of my person. I am crude and brash, often surly and bitter. These things do not a father make, and it breaks my heart completely to feel this way. May the rest of my personality fall in line with this new theorem, for if not I will truly become a hollow shell of humanity, careless and mindless, wandering through the remainder of my days.

Star date........

I wish I could get lost in the stars the more I look at them. I only have a very basic understanding and knowledge of the heavens, but I feel better when I watch them. The moon is my best friend in the world, due to the simple fact that no matter what happens, what I say, she listens without reproach. I have people I talk to, but thats to keep from losing my mind : / The moon is my lover and confidant, for never will she forsake me for anther. It's at times such as these in my life that it becomes most important to me that I remember her, for I feel all others have cast me by the wayside. The worst of it is that my misery is probably mostly of my own making : (